Day 11

Today was a really depressing day. It was our last day at the orphanage and I would be playing with the kids having a great time until the thought would cross my mind that today was goodbye. We all woke up, and we went right to the orphanage, we played with the kids for a couple of hours and then we left to go get party supplies. We were having a party obviously cuz it was our last day. We got them pizza, coke, desserts, and lots of other things too. So we went back to the orphanage and we told them to get in their little eating circle and we were feeding them pizza, and I served one of my favorites, Pon, and he gives me this balloon that had the sweetest things on it. It was like "I dont want you to go, I will will miss yiou, I will always remember you." just so sweet, I will miss Tong, Reit, and Pon most of all. We were all in their big church room and then Jack came and he's like Kassie we're leaving in a couple of minutes. And that's when I just lost it, I started having a few tears and people were giving me bracletes and things to remember them by and I was so devastated to have to leave these amazing kids. So we didn't leave for a couple of hours after Jack came in and told me that, in the last couple of hours every kid started to cry except for very very few. Reit remindes me of one of my cousins and so it was hard to see him start to cry and he just had these tears rollong down his cheeks, and people never cry in Cambodia unless it is a big deal, like these kids were street beggars and I saw 2 kids cry this whole time and when we left, practically everyone was crying. Anyways so since crying doesn't happen Reit was embarassed and so was Pon, I told them it's ok to cry and that it is good to cry but they were both just shaking their heads like it is totally a disgrace to cry and I just felt awful. The very first kid who lost it was Kea, just had a total meltdown, hugging everyone telling us he didn't wanna say goodbye, he was hanging on our shirts begging us not to go, I was really really sad after I saw this. So all the kids lost it and they were all crying the only person I didn't see cry was Tong, but apparently everyone else did. They are so cute. They give you bracelets and rings that they made you, and they are so embarassed to give them to you! Its hilarious. When we were leaving I was really sad to leave Pon because he's the quiet one who is just the best kid in the world once he finally warms up and he was huggung me saying I love you please don't leave! And I would say I'm sorry, I have to go, I love you too! I will come back one day I promise. It was really sad, and I miss them all so much already. Reit, when I would say we had to go he'd always be like no, you live here, you sleep! I will come back one day and I hope that day will be soon!